I ended the Instagram stream, 'the.jizo.project', a few weeks ago. I took it down for three reasons:
1.) The Instagram presentation of Jizo was turning the.jizo.project into a mail-order scene. I spent way more time than I wanted to boxing up Jizos, mailing Jizos, and closing the loop with people who asked for them. 2.) I grated at the nice things that complete strangers were saying about me. It really got to me. I wanted to respond back something along the lines of "You have no idea about me - none whatsoever.", but of course I didn't.. 3.) [This is the main reason - buried at point three] A month ago, I had to go to the wake of someone's father who had recently passed away. I had no desire to go at all because this person was a Trump supporter. In fact, I grew angry and belligerent at the very thought of it. Terrible, right? Here I was on the one hand posting things on Instagram like "May we be peaceful. May we be happy. May we be safe. May we awaken to the light of our true nature. May we be free." and on the other hand I was having trouble mustering the very smallest amount of decency it took to attend a wake. Talk about being a sham, a fake.So - I'll still be making Jizos and writing about them, but I'll be doing it here at The Great Wide World. The difference is night and day. You know me. You know me better than almost anyone else in the world. You've seen my pettiness, my smallness. You know that this Jizo project is born out of my despair and brokenness and not because I'm 'nice'. |
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